BLAAAAH

"blizzard" what blizzard?? Lol so there was no blizzard but there was snow and it was bloddy freezing today! I thought i had gotten frost bite after scraping solid ice from the car. But then nothing beats getting into the warm car and thawing out your fingers.
And on the drive to provo there was like a pond kinda and there were bijillions of ducks in it and the sun was shining :) from just looking outside you'd never have guessed that it was minus 5 degrees C. And the mountains were so freaking pretty... The way the snowy mountains reflected the orange sunlight as it was setting... This is why i like winter. Last winter in ireland was almost like that! With the exception of mountains of course... And ducks. And slightly more carnage on the road due to pure inexperience mixed with a couple of those "i can do it" drivers who thought ice was no match for their beast of a car..

 

I must admit... I do love when nature turns nasty. I get all excited for blizzards and floods and lightning storms! Although the excitement dies at tornados... Probably cuz i tend to have these weird dreams about running from like 4 at a time... I can probably attribute that to far too much television and a wild imagination. Which would also probably explain my recent wave of "criminal minds" like dreams. Although they wouldn't be half as bad if Dr. Reid or SSA Hotchner would once in a while make an appearance those dreams... Haha. I'm such a creep.


One day and one week until i go back to ireland.
They say home is where the heart is. I guess that depends on the definition of "the heart" right... I mean if it's where the people you love are.. Then ireland is home for sure my home... But so is south africa then..

But then home can be like a million places... Like what about people who move away from their families... Does that mean they're never home? So i'd like some clarification on this "heart" that the speak about. Cuz technically... That would make my home behind my ribs? Again with these metaphores.... I guess metaphores have a better ring that stuff that makes sense... And they're probably shorter too.... But take far longer to figure out... If you ever really figure them out.
I guess until i figure it out i'm still looking for "home"
that sounded like a terrible one liner that should be said by an annoying red head as he slips on his sunglasses.... Yes mr csi.
Well my eyes are burning from focusing on the bright screen in the dark and me hands are annoyed at texting this much... Cuz i have to hold the phone up with my pinky... Lol
happy thanksgiving :) :)

My Christmas list :)

So i have come up with a list of things (realistic and very unrealistic) that i want for christmas...
A piano
a kitten
a fish tank filled with guppies
a new car
a schnazzy camera
every episode ever of criminal minds
an acoustic guitar
a huuge art set
a music system (sad. Christi doesn't even have a radio???)
a new computer
every episode of the US Office
"Never Back Down" the movie
a video camera
a treadmill!!!
A house...or two :)
every ablum in existance by the following artists
*I Blame CoCo
*Taking Back Sunday
*Yellowcard
*Frank Sinatra
*Dire Straits
*Dashboard Confessional
*Michael Buble
*Escape the Fate
...and probably alot more...but it's late and i firgettt!
Hugs and kisses from Niamh and Spuddy!
Lots of chocolate!!!
A new dress...
High heel converse
I'd really like a little monkey!
I'd also like to own a baseball team.!
A recording studio.
A lifetime supply of slightly too big T-shirts
A ticket back to Americurrrr
Rum and Raisin ice-cream
All of the fast and furious movies!!
Paul Walker or Cam Gigandet...the latter would be preferred....
Channing Tatum.
New running shoes that are broken toe friendly.
Steak and Kidney pie!!!!

Ummmm... I think that's it for now... That's not too much to ask is it?? Hahaha
bubye.

Music and stuff.

There is nothing quite as theraputic as ripping up old letters while listening to the wonderful Mr. Adam Lazzara and Taking Back Sunday :)
although i temporarily feel like i'm 17 again every time i listen to them. :)
First song i ever learned to play on the guitar was "Makedamnsure" sadly i probably don't remember how to play it anymore... Except for the bit "we lie we lie together just not too close, too close" other than that.. I fiiirgot it. Although i was never really that good at playing guitar. I never practiced and i hate following music. Christi prefers to play by ear! Which is probably why i found the violin and the harmonica so much easier. Cus you just use your brain and figure out what each string sounds like... Then you pretty much know what'll come out depending on where you put your fingers. With the guitar... Eets not so simple... Although i still would like to master my baby


I remember the christmas i got that guitar! All pretty and blue and wonderful. And it matched my drum kit perfectly! I was so excited :) i think i've missed that alot over this few months. Making music. I haven't played a musical instrument since i've been here. Not even the piano. Sad. Next time i go away i'm for sure bringing some sort of instrument with me... Harmonica's nice and small.... So's my violin... Drums and the guitar'd be a little harder to kart around hahaha. It's kinda weird when i think about how much a part of my life music is. Like when my wall was pretty much wall papered with posters of fall out boy, taking back sunday, avenged sevenfold, paramore, the used, and other awesomeness... I kinda miss being like some crazed fan and having posters everywhere.... Good thing i saved them all hehehe



I love how just waking up to the right song can make like your whole day awesome...
Or at least trick you into thinking that it's gonna be amazing and so you act accordingly... I love it.
Or having that song that you like to drive to when you're pissed off... And you just wanna listen to it super super loud. Awesomeness... Although sometimes depending on the song you end up driving far faster than the speed limit allows.... I'm guilty. I needs me a track to drive around. Nothing feels better than i good drive!! Or beating someone in a race home... Hehehe especially if they've been driving like at least 10 years longer than you... Although the fact that you're driving a bmw and them a corolla... Kinda evens the playing field haha... But still nothing beats a good drive to some good music :)


I guess that's something to look forward to when i get back to ireland... Although Christi will try to keep the speed limit this time lol no really i will.... M'kay
bye.

Lemons?!?!?

<3 this song 


Aaah! today's my Second last saturday in Utah (for now haha) ... i have the habit of counting down stuff like that... Like before i left i was like.. this is the last time i eat pizza in ireland for a while... or this is the last time i drive... I'm such a douche!

So i woke up with a cat on my Feet clawing the crap outta me... But it was all good cuz i miss having a Kitty to wake me up.. Sad.
And i'm in a sickeningly Good mood today... considering that i spent yesterday thinking "i don't wanna go to Ireland" lol 


At Least i got a couple things to look forward to there though right? Like My Little Marky said he's got a huuuge Cuddle waiting for me as soon as i get home!! YAY! and Poco Niamh Is getting so big and Got 2 teeth and Crawling... so i get to see her!! :D :D :D That's good!! and For sure me ma and Pa And Btother und Schwester!! I Lubs them too!! :D
and maybe i'll get to take my stupid test before i leave   that way i can drive when i get back here! :D Riiight?

Other than that... I don't wanna leave  hahahaha... Oh well...  When Life Gives you melons.... you're Probably  Dyslexic!


I was Just talking to Me Martha this morning about how i hate all those silly Metaphorical Sayings!!  Like The Lemonade one...  Seriously...What if you hate lemonade?!  and if you like Lemons... Well then that saying becomes completely Redundant...

anyway... i shall Stop ranting now... and possibly Dance on a table or something.... No, not really.

Life has a funny way of Sneaking up on you... and being a little Biatch! lol

Isn't it Ironic? eh?  Click it

story of my life eh?
I'm so ridiculously indecisive that at soon as the oppertunity to make a rash decision comes along...*jump* i hop on it. Like some douche pissing me off... Bam christi's Dying to go home..... *christi gets time to think about it and have fun* dagnabbit!!! I do that though i force myself into making choices just so i can make them... When i can't choose between 2 things i do eenie meanie just to force a decision and then if i don't like "mo" i choose the other option... Which about 99 percent of the time.... Oh Christi!

Went to a basketball game tonight! BYU won :)
i didn't shout during the game though... Usually i get far too rude and obnoxious haha... Although i found myself repeatedly yellin"pass the ball! Bitches!?" in my head.... I guess it's good that it stayed in my head haha.

It was fun though.
I have come to the realization that i become obsessed with the smallest randomest things in songs. Eg in "cute without the E" you know the first time he says "i won't ever ask if you don't ever tell me" ? Well christi is in love with the way he says "you" just that first time... Although he can never do wrong by me. I've not so secretly been in love with him since i was like 17 lol.....
Oh welllllll.

Tonight is fir shizzle my rambling via blog night haha... I have been awake for 18 hours and still cannot get to sleep... It might possible have something to do with the coke i drank.. Just maybe.... But i think i'm immune to coke lol... Gimme some redbull maybe and it's a whole different story..... A scary one that don't end well (like the time i drank 7 of them and felt like death afterward.... Ended up waking up the next morning feeling more hungover than anyone else that was actually possibly drunk the night before..... Mmmm vanilla Rooibos tea and sunshine! Cured that right up :)


jeez..... I have far too much of nothing to say tonight. It's probably more me being selfish and rambling as some sort cathartic exercise... I guess that's all this ever really was right? Or at least that's why i started this like a year and something ago... So i can put down dumb thoughts but since it's online, not as dumb and nerdy as my journal.... I often read through my journal to remind myself that i could be and one was a bigger loooza than i am now lol. I am a freeeking rockstaa compared to how i was like... A few years ago... Eww!
Ok well this tiny keyboard has taken it's toll on my fingers and i think that 21 text pages worth of blog is enough for one night.... Especially since i gotta try send them in the right order now... Uh oh
good night. :D

So i've been sitting for about the last hour.... Staring at a bee on the light... With a rolled up newspaper.

It's quite pathetic that i'm so scared of bees.... Like so scared that even though i hate heights i'll run around on shakey scaffolding to get away from a bee... True story lol.

I think it's because when i was young i stepped on a bunch of dead bees by a fire and i remember it hurt... I just don't remember how much... So they're mega scary!!
I remember being in the game reserve in s.a and freaking oug like crazy if one came in the car. Like the one time when i took the air mattress and tried to hide underneath it.
I'm actually so freaked out right now.... It's like he's taunting me.... Flapping his wings every now and again as if he's gonna come at me.... Oh help me!! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!

Me no likey. :(

Wha'eva Minga

I'm so not in a Good mood today!

So This is My song for the Morning.

Alls Christi needs now is her Drum Kit or a Punching bag and Sorted.. Riight
 Sounds like a good idea .


The end

So i woke up in an odd paramore mood. It's very seldom that i decide to just listen to only paramore all the way through. :)

i had my first nap today since i've been in america! Sad!! Anyone who knows me knows i loves me a good nap!!
The closer to me leaving it gets... The super sadder i feel leaving lol.... That's christi's luck for ya! Aint no luck of the irish there! Lol

oh wel
sad lol
merry christmas

it's true,

Elder Gardner's friends are flipping awesome!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

...

So it's Super Dooper Sunny today... Noice Bai!

I'm Having a Seriously Clumsy day today...  First i woke up By laughing so hard that i snorted myself awake.. Good thing no one else was home haha..  then i was Doing my hair and stepped backwards and fell into the bath?!?!  then i Tried Brushing my teeth with the Toothpaste Tube...
Then i made myself some food... I got all comfy and sat down.. And realised that i forgot my spoon... Saaaad!  so while i'm getting my spoon i also got me a glass of water... Sipping away at my water and i got a little over zealous and poured half the Glass Down my shirt....  WTF!?


Maybe it's cuz i woke up too late Although waking up implies that one was actually asleep Lol

Oh wellll What can ya do like!


i Like this song.

 

Chicks who cook on telly...

i have this annoying Addiction to the Food Channel... i mean it probably wouldn't be annoying if i had a huge Kitchen withe Every possible ingredient in it... But since i don't... It's pretty Annoying!!  Although... i think i Just Threw up in my mouth... Some Chick is Making Apple and Sausage right now!?  That's pretty Effing Disgusting!!  Not to mention her high pitched voice!

I'v always hated Woman Chefs!  like it's not THAT amazing that you can cook.. you;re a woman... it;s your job! haha..

But really  Maybe it's cuz only the annoying ones get their own shows!! i think they Should Give Alex Guarnaschelli her own show... i'd watch that!



Oh well..

3 Posts in ONE DAY?!

Indeed  it is so... But this is my attempt at maintaining the Good mood i woke up with! Click the links Fool!

Some Funny

Some Awesome

Some "i'm annoyed and i'm gonna drive real fast"

Some Rarrrrrr

Some more Rarrrrrr

Ok now i'm in a good mood.

:D

Before i Forget....

I shall Mention the Awesomeness of What Is "Taco Tuesday" I never actually thought it was a
real thing... i always thought it was just a reason to eat food because it starts with the same letter as the day... Oh alliteration..

But no... it's for real! i swear! i was there because Mr. "Elder Gardner" Was Awesome enough to Invite me to tag Along and Bask in it's amazingness! Mmmm Hot Sauce!


:D

Sink into me.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryWV7LsF-ps&ob=av2e

How can anyone wake up to this song and Not be in a good mood?!?!? I have no idea!!

YAYs! i'm Having a Chat with Megs for the first time in ages! She misses me so terribly that i had to text her!! haha :P
I think the sun is coming out.... that wasn't a Metaphor for anything though... i mean the sun is actually shining outside! Lol

I miss My little Spud Monkey and Niamh... They are growing up so fast and i've only been gone a month?! i guess in baby time that's Ages!!

Little Niamh already has a tooth! I'm excited for her to bite my fingers off just like Marky did!! Lol

Next thing she'll be running around too... Aww...

And to think she used to be So small... Kerazy!

"Well i'd Like to see our Roles Reversed, To see you hang on every word. I'd Like to See you have your Way"

I'm surprisingly a-okay with the fact that "you never were and you never will be mine"

no fir rizzle...

i know riight!? About freaking time. . .

Oh well... What can ya do eh!? "I think i shall write a book of it, and burn it as if i were actually erasing every memory we ever made"

on another note..... Never chew minty gum before you brush your teeth... It makes the toothpaste taste like CRAP! ! !

G'night
or whatever

Snow?!

Haha So today was the first time it Actually Snowed While i was awake... And it was like being back in Ireland sitting in class and suddenly it's snowing and everyone's staring out the window and no work gets done... I had this Huge grin on my face while i was walking the dog and then i had tho tell myself to stop looking like such a goof ball because everyone else here has seen snow a billion times and i Am walking around like i just Found santa's village or something! haha.... I'm suck a Dork!

But.. i can deal with being a creep.. :D
MAybe.
haha
Whatever

If i saw myself now last week i wold have Tripped me!

So i woke up today... BEFORE TEN!!! WTF?!? i know right!

And i just woke up in a generally good mood....
And the realisation that if people don't think you're worth their time... they're not worth yours!

I also still had the weirdest dreams everrr... That i most likely woke up a billion times during the night.... and as i was falling asleep i fell out of my bed... which just made me have to start the falling asleep process allll over again!

But I still woke up in an annoyingly good mood.
Perhaps it's because it's the first time in ages that i woke up to the sound of rain falling on my window! or perhaps it's that i should get up before ten more often... although it was my unreasonable good mood that made me get outta bed so early... so yeah

Me who cares.. a good mood is a good mood. the only thing that would make me feel Even better is A nice big fire to burn some stuff in... i think that'd be good!! and Fairly Theraputic haha

anyway... Whatever.

The joys of Daylight Saving!! :)

So i found out today that in Utah the clocks Go back an hour like... now! Yay!! it's Like eleven pm all over again... Oh Love!~! I have decided that i like weekends. More than i used to too!

I also have a weird Chewing gum thing going on... i bought like 4 giant packs of gum on monday... that makes me happy! especially cuz they're awesomely flavoured!! although i think my Jaws are getting pretty irritated at constantly having to chew and blow bubbles... But Christi Likes that so there.

I woke up this morning feeling like i had some major hang over or something...it was like death... but it's just a silly cold...

My iPod and i have become good friends again! for a while mr Poddy was Neglected and only brought out when i needed a good song to cry to. haha Christi's lame! she knows!
But now we're good again! it's awesome for taking walks or when i'm getting ready... i think i'd die if i didn't have it with me! aaaaaaah... nightmares! lol

Speaking of nightmares... i still am having the most insane dreams EVER!!
This is the most Disjointed Blog post ever... but it's for the sake of me not losing my mind...


It's already november... Holy cow.. i can't believe the year has gone so fast.... when i think about the past year... ugh... Vomit! if only i knew how puke worthy it was gonna be before it was!!!
Although... i'm that lame that i'd probably have said... Eh... i'm down with that...

Although it's always good to know what's coming... so you can be like i knew that was gonna happen... i'm prepared... Rather than... WHAT THE CRAP?!?!!?!
Then again... Knowing me when i do know what's gonna happen i'm still sickeningly positive about it in my head even when on the outside i'm as negative as hell about things. It's cuz i'm weird.

Whatever..

Goodnight.

The weird dreams i dream.

Today i woke up about an hour after i usually wake up... although yesterday... it was 2 hours Later.
I think i want to Blame Criminal Minds For my weird dreams and lack of proper sleep... Yesterday morning i woke up thinking i needed to find "ruth's" Diary so we could figure out who would want to Kidnap her... i don't even know anyone by the name of Ruth... but within a few seconds of opening my eyes and stretching out of the ball i usually turn into while sleeping, i snapped back to reality and laughed at my self for letting a tv show Turn me crazy... like that time i watched Doll house and woke up in the night Smacking my self along side the head saying "why are you making me do this" i thought i had no control over my hands and the "dollhouse people" were making me do it... One can't help but laugh at themselves when they awake properly and realise that they are most likely INSANE!! haha Although.. that time i was super sick and had a fever... so i'll blame it all on that!! :D

Tuesday night i dreamed that i could fly... I hate those dreams for the very fact that i always have to wake up to the reality that ... i cannot just flap my arms and fly. Sometimes it's not even Flapping my arms... sometimes i have to hold some random object to make me fly... Like a Playing card. or once i flew on a tennis racket as if it were a Witch's broom. Sometimes though.. i don't fly.. i just jump really high. and in my dreams i'm used to doing it but part of me is still majorly Freaked out at how high i can get.

then there's the weird dreams where i'm drowning but for a few seconds after my head goes under the water i can breathe, i always find myself thinking "Wow this is like that dream i once had except it's real life" and the waking up to find that indeed.. it was just like the other dreams i have when i breathe under water. I'm such a weirdo...

The two types of dreams never go together though.. usually... Except tuesday i dreamed that i was flying over the river in cork city.. and someone was drowning so i stopped flying and tried to help them... then i was drowning... except not really cuz i was breathing under water... i think my face just sometimes gets covered by my blanket and so my brain tries to compensate for what my body is feeling. Like the moments before you're going to sleep and suddenly your foot jerks... and you feel like you dreamed you were tripping.. well i think that you only think you dreamed you were tripping cuz your brains trying to make sense of the random Foot Jerking.

Really i'm just rambling on hoping to keep myself awake long enough to be tired enough to sleep properly.


Goodnight.

Dear Assholes.

So 6 Months has turned into like... well not 6 months!

I'm leaving on December the 3rd to go back "home"
I' excited to see my family and My Poco Sinorita and Spuddy!
I'm happy that i will be with my family for Christmas, And i'll see Niamh on her first Birthday.
I'm Excited to drive around again, i miss having a car.
I'm Excited to see Friends there.

But i know that there are people Waiting for me back there, Who, as soon as they see me 4 months before i meant for them to, will sit with That smug look on their Face thinking "i knew she couldn't do it" Those same people that made That place as Miserable is it was, Who if were as good as they thought they were... well they'd have been translated by now... so i guess... well.. ha.

But...
Screw them right?

"don't Gossip" "ooh you can't say that" "ooh i'm telling on you"
I Love it! people who think they have the right to treat people like crap because of their "good standing"


'i guess it got stored someway and we just forgot about it" Oh ok so that's fine then. NOT REALLY!!

Seriously!!! When gossip travels as fast as it does there, do you really think you have the right to treat people like crap, there's plenty Gossip to go around about everyone... and just because you only told people you trust... well that doesn't mean it won't get around. Believe me i already made that mistake. So self Righteous. but it's kind of funny i guess... because you really think people don't know. so it's funny to me when you act like you're perfect and i know you're not. Which is fine! because no one's perfect. but Don't damn well pretend you are either. you look like more of an asshole pretending you're perfect than when you just admit your faults!



"did you hear about Christi"
" Hey Christi! @#$#% told me about..."

"i don't know why they said that.. i never told a soul"

"i never said anything like that"


I'm so sick of the Bullshit! honestly... Get over yourself and worry about your own Lives

Sticking your noses in where they don't belong... not just with me... that's for sure....
Taking stuff you hear on a Personal (non Church) level and Turning it into some International Church Scandal... Boo hoo.. i'm telling. Grow up. Seriously. alll the room in the world to judge other people when it's not your or your family... cuz then it's all "who the hell are the to judge me" Well who the hell are you to judge anyone. and then you still think i don't know. and you greet me with that holier than thou smile.... like "i'm smiling and she's smiling so she must not know, Yesss" but well.. i was just smiling to cover up the fact that i think you're a complete asshole...


And now.... for the Lovely Family Discussions to follow Like that time i did something stupid when i was like 12 and everyone knew before my parents. it wasn't a case of right and wrong... it was a case of "ooh come Listen to this... Hear What Christi did, ok i guess we should tell her parents now that we've discussed it around the dinner table"
Little Emails and texts etc about oh how could Christi Even think about saying that and ooh that was totally aimed at me bla bla... Maybe you can even print it out or forward it in an email... Let's play a game and see how fast we can get Christi into trouble huh? ok go!
"oh no but Christi get's herself into trouble" yeah whatever. let's not talk about people getting themselves into trouble M'kay.


And then we can all act like we don't know where this all came from... and Oh Hey Christi... how's it going. are you ok...
Or we can cut the crap and not waste each others time.
I'm in Favour of the latter. Because i'm So done with Faking smiles for the sake keeping the peace. and just being expected to do so.


And to everyone else. see you when i get home :)